The Compromises You Cannot Make Often Lead to Your Initiation
I thought that something was wrong
Because everybody kept on asking me what’s missing,
What’s gone wrong?!
I didn’t think that anything had gone wrong.
It sounds complicated but it’s
Very simple:
Even though
You’re not making enough money
or you don’t have a partner
or can’t move your career
to a point you know it can thrive
or haven’t found yet
the group of your belonging
that won’t judge you
for being who you are
You know
that in spite all that
it’s not because something’s wrong.
You know
that it’s not because you’re not doing the right things
or not doing enough.
You know
It’s not because something’s missing
or that you’ve failed to play the game.
There are compromises you just can’t make
and your heart is telling you
Babe, this game is not your game
this compromise is not yours to make.
You just know
that your soul is asking you to grow
with her through this hardship,
through this moment in time
when it seems like you hit a stop sign.
You know that it’ll be ok
and even when people tell you you’re an optimist,
you fear that they’re right
but you also know that there’s nothing
wrong with that.
So your focus shifts to finding the right answers
when people ask you ‘why is it happening?’
and ‘have you tried (this and that)?’
or ‘if it worked before how come it isn’t working now?’.
And you start by giving them
reasonable answers.
To not sound too odd when you say
‘it’s ok. I’m on the path’
when you’re actually struggling to pay the bills.
And your answers
shifts to name all the things