Where is This Relationship Going?

How many hours have I spent thinking about what other people will think about […]?

How many nights have I spent thinking that I haven't done enough or I should get better in ... ?

How many minutes have I spent thinking about what I want to be, who I want to be, where I want to be?

How many conversations have I spent feeling I'm not smart enough?

How many days have I spent fearing I made a wrong decision, or thinking I don't know how to make the right decision, or fearing it'll be too late by the time I make a decision?

How many writings and poems and paintings have I spent time criticising and judging?

Do see where this relationship is going?

Nowhere.

Yes, you'll meet people, make new friends, leave some, find new jobs, change some, earn some money, lose some. Yes, life goes on and things are happening. Of course. But where are you in all of this. I mean where are YOU in all of this?

"And the end of all our exploring

Will be to arrive where we started

And know the place for the first time." T.S. Eliot