When you don't know what you want
What do you do if you don’t know what you want?
That’s a question I’ve been asked in my last two Life Alignment workshops. A good question!
You always know what you want. Just let it breath and listen.
If you think you don’t know what you want, there are too many things you want and you can’t make up your mind, you’re not sure if what you want is what you want or what others wanted for you and you’ve internalised it, then there’s one way to find out.
Go to your feelings. They’ll tell you everything you need to know.
The ego wants more more and then some more. You probably have heard once that desire is one of the sources for suffering (you sweet Buddhist).
It’s impossible not to want. But what is possible is to free what you want into the world and not grasp for pre-designed results.
For years I wanted to ‘just be myself’. But I had no clue what it meant and how to make a living by simply being/doing myself. I did a lot throughout the year but there was always a sense that I don’t really know what I want. It taught me that it’s only fear that can mask and numb our wants to a point that we can’t figure them out anymore. This is when relying on your ego that only wants more, to be praised no matter what, is not helpful anymore and your heart has the better argument.
Your feelings are very elaborate, they crate all kind of waves. I get it you don’t want the stormy ones, you don’t feel safe when your feelings are strong and demanding. Learning to surf the waves of your feelings you learn to witness how they ignite an insight made into words, actions, connections.
Fear of being ridiculed for what you want, fear that what you want is not realistic, fear you don’t have enough time to go after what you want, fear you don’t have enough money/friends/connection/experience/knowledge to go after what you want, fear that what you want has never been done before, is just the beginning of the list of fears attached to what you want.
Be generous with the spirit of allowing yourself to want the things and experiences dear to your heart.
Then, let it travel and make wonders in the world. When what you want suddenly becomes real - you call it miracle, I call it life.